Bodymind Therapy : The Awakening By Dr Nitin
"The key to both our internal integration and a balanced relationship with the world lies within our feelings and sensations. We can nurture and heal both our bodies and minds by touching our feeling deeply and expanding the flowing rhythms they bring us, for they are linked to the vitality of the universe itself." Tarthang Tulku
Tarthang's Tulku's insight is reflected in the experiences Dr. Nitin nayak shares about his perceptions of Bodymind Therapy in the following pages taken from his journal.
BLISS
The Inner Silence
Awareness
The Core, The truth that I experience in the Present Moment.
Keep Melting
The Message
The process to experience consciously
The Patterns!
Identifying, feeling through them;
Not really getting rid of them
But dis-identifying, not really being trapped by them.
And
Before
everything is the Pain.
That is Avoidance;
That is actually Resistance
To feelings and Emotions
To the Bliss that I am.
Nothing is Permanent
Not even the Pain.
Explore
Doing everything with the sense of exploration
With enthusiasm.
Melting away layers after layers of the Patterns
That creates Fencing around the Core.
To be my own authentic self.
These are the most poignant impressions that come out about the 2nd bodywork module as I sit down to write about it.
And what is the strongest and most important impression that I carry back home? That which almost overshadows every other
process?
It is
rebirthing!. Rebirthing,Rebirthing,Rebirthing and Rebirthing
The whole 5 days of Emotional Release.
Combined with the Core Empowerment Training that preceded this module- the continuation of awakening processes has resulted in shedding lot of emotional weight along with the physical.
I feel as if 17 years have dropped back in 17 days. . Physically
lighter, the muscles are free and flexible. There is a spring in
the gait. Mind is relaxed and active and my rhyming sense is back
with my singing voice . The voice has opened up and deepened.
There was clarity of intention before coming to this module-
To go through the rebirthing and Emotional Release with
willingness to peel off past layers and masks and to achieve
confidence in handling other rebirthing sessions by guiding more
people through the process.
There were moments of fear and anxiety
Before jumping into the process of Rebirthing
The fear coming from the Ego
Of letting go
The Willingness
To experience what experiences come up
And feel the feeling -fully
This was the key to melt through them
The anxiety for rebirthing stemmed from the memory of the first rebirthing in my first course, painful because of my resistance. This time was different - I right away got into the rebirthing breathing, focussing on it while experiencing whatever comes up. This helped integrate the process, which was facilitated faster by getting into a faster and deeper breathing cycle. . Interestingly, the distractions around like others screaming laughing or other noises also become a part of the integration process when my partner or me are totally relaxed and fully into the circular breathing. It was interesting to note that - The drama of screaming and shouting- though not avoided- may not really facilitate integration- expressing the emotion is not exactly releasing the suppressed emotion.
Really feeling through with full awareness of
detail is what is required to integrate into ecstasy.
For on the other side of the Pain lies the Bliss.
The importance of being fully with the rebirthee, being in total rapport is essential to tune in with them and guide them intuitively through the process. It was interesting to note how we picked up images and feelings from each other and also how we mirrored each other's resistance and patterns during the sessions.
Which also meant that the rebirther when completely with the rebirthee also benefits.
Each experience- of leading and being led through the process- was totally different. Going through and conducting more rebirthing sessions here back home are proving to be beneficial in the long run.
The Body reading: compared my own body reading notes from the first course with this time-a gap of one and half year. it was interesting to note the changes in the body corresponding with the changes in the emotional patterns. There is greater emphasis now on reading the body and creating a map of the corresponding points to work on.
The Muscle sculpting and James Syrax methods: There the techniques I use most frequently. A few new techniques were added this time. working everyday on others and getting worked on by others released most of teh muscles from any chronic tensions and stiffness.it is very satisfying to see the release in the musculature as i work point by point meticulously on the body.amzing is the postural corrections and change in the gait that takes place after these sesions.
Nadi Prana: a form of Tibetan Yoga was an exciting experience this time around. Not only was I able to go through the exercises with more ease, this time I there was more depth in understanding the importance of the exercises. Particularly the time when I mistakenly went through a 10 min session in one position led me to experience the depth of the melting through and the vibrations that leads ultimately to release.
CHU- KAI: a Mongolian technique of self massage - where we go deep till the bone to release past fears and patterns. The pain I experienced in working on my left ankle was excruciating, yet there was pleasure on the other side when it really burnt through my whole foot making the skin numb for next full week. The ankle swelling was however completely gone and amazingly so was the calcified patch on my previous fracture site. Also there was a sense of relief and lightness and subtle corrections in the alignment and the gait.
Peripheral vision has improved due to Tai-chi and the ERT points and rebirthing. Eyes feel wider and open. And the hearing has sharpened . The group energy was excellent and harmonious
What did I regain from the course?
The Freedom- from limiting beliefs.
Exploring the Resistance
And the Bliss beyond Pain and Resistance.
To be in the Present
To be my own Authentic self.
Exploring life and the self.
The Explorer
Nitin